My Life Uncensored
The last few days have been a bit of a rollercoaster. Chaos mixed with calm, where nothing big happens, but still, a lot does. It’s like time is moving both too fast and too slow at the same time. Late winter always feels a little strange to me. Everything is gray and tired, like the … Read more
You left me in a hospital bed. You abandoned me while I was fighting to stay alive. Stripped down. Monitored. Vulnerable. Alone. And you called it self-preservation. You are a coward. I carried you. I held your chaos. I endured your spirals. I loved you when it was hard. I stayed when no one else … Read more
The last few days have been a slow slide into gray. Snow falls outside, heavy and relentless, like the sky is trying to bury the world quietly. I lie in bed, lights still on, watching YouTubers scream through multiplayer matches while I hover somewhere between entertained and completely detached. Explosions on screen. Silence in the … Read more
The last few days haven’t been loud. Nothing exploded. No dramatic exits. Just this steady, almost uncomfortable quiet. I keep thinking about how in Call of Duty: Warzone you get eliminated and there’s still a system for you. A Gulag. A buyback. Another drop. The game assumes you’re not finished yet. Real life doesn’t always … Read more
Eleven years. That’s not a phase. That’s not a fling. That’s not “we tried.” That’s building a life around someone. You met me when I was all in. When loving someone wasn’t strategic it was instinct. When if I chose you, I chose you completely. No half measures. No backup plans. You used to say … Read more
Today was… just steady. No big moves, no chaos, no fireworks — just me, my space, and Warzone. Sometimes days like this are underrated. I stayed home, dropped into a few matches, and let the world outside drift by. The hum of the map is oddly comforting. Loot spawns in the weirdest spots. There’s always … Read more
Today is… actually good. Like, my brain isn’t screaming at me for once. It’s quiet. Calm. Steady. And honestly, that alone feels like a small victory. But wait there’s more ! Call of Duty has been going surprisingly well. Or at least, I haven’t accidentally blown myself up yet. I’ve been sticking to core, because … Read more
I slip through places where no one notices me. My days feel heavier than anything the world will throw at me. I drag along every thought, memory, and piece of me like chains I made myself. I’m the anger with nowhere to go. I am the ache with no comfort. I am the exhaustion that … Read more
Leaving is a single, clean thought. It arrives like relief. Like finally setting something heavy down. Staying is the moment after that thought passes. When you realize you’re still here. When your body keeps breathing even though you didn’t agree to it. People think survival is instinct. They don’t understand how much effort it takes … Read more
Last night was one of those rare moments when everything felt easy and light. No past worries in the shadows. No need to be anyone other than myself. We were just laughing and wandering with no plan. We talked about nothing important. We teased strangers in small, silly ways. It felt like the world’s weight … Read more